Tag: emotions

The sea of mixed emotions

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I sometimes get angry 

I don’t know why

it boils up like a raging sea

no way to avoid it

it causes me to explode

I really don’t care if those around me feel hurt

its so much more fun when I am passionate

thoughtful caring and connected

sensual and erotic

nobody can escape my love trap 

lets all swim in the communal happiness pool 

my love drug highs fade away

waves of sadness engulf me

cancer kills my friends

who allowed that baby to die

why did those terrorists kill so many innocent people

I miss my departed mother

war broke out again

occasionally I find myself being really nice

caring and reassuring

calm and collected

peaceful and reflecting

logic and sense flow gently through my veins 

until an uninvited incision bleeds my emotions dry

I sometimes wake up depressed

my life will never be meaningful

we are all doomed

human existence is a waste of time

floating aimlessly in a foggy ocean

suicide hails me like a long lost friend

I look at the sea

endless waves inviting me

intense patterns of reflected sunlight fuel my enthusiasm

its a signal to surf and explore 

rediscover the joys of living and running free

rolling waves of emotion command the passing of time

waves keep crashing in

I must decide which one is mine

no room in my short life for negative emotions

I surf an approaching happiness wave 

it carries me along for a what I hope to be an eternity 

but I am quickly jettisoned into the sea of mixed emotions

pebble on the beach

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she picked up a pebble on the beach at dawn

it was heart shaped

holding in in her open hand

she could feel the heartbeat

she put the pebble in her pocket

walked back to her waterfront home

her husband was still sleeping

placing the pebble on his pillow

she got back into bed

drifted off to sleep

dreaming about being loved

being held tight

a loud noise woke her

her husband was sitting up

somebody put a rock in the bed he yelled

he threw it against the wall

she decided not to own up

her husband got up and dressed

there was no good morning kiss

he left the house soon after

she got out of bed

found the pebble on the floor

holding it tight in her hand

no heartbeat it was cold and dead

it was time to move on

she packed a bag

made a few calls to friends

took a taxi to the airport 

she left a note on his pillow

I gave you my heart

but you threw it away

I am not made of stone

Mission accomplished

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Sometimes words are not enough

He gave up talking

When she stopped listening

Holding her tightly in his arms

A strong manly bear hug

She made no attempt to escape

Melting into him

She released the grip on her imprisoned emotions

Directing her feelings to the door of freedom

At first it was a gently cry

Shedding tears with jagged breaths

Growing steadily into a sobbing wail

Interrupted by short sharp intakes of gasping breath

She became a limp rag doll

Unable to stand without his support

Her whole body shook as she cried

The wailing slowly subsided

Replaced by labored heavy breathing

Her emotional prisoners had all escaped

Strength gradually returned to her limbs

She supported her own weight again

Her arms clung tightly to him

He relaxed the strength of his bear hug slightly

Suddenly he was the captive

She would decide when it was time to untangle

Her cold tears soaked his right shoulder

She lifted her head briefly

Softly brushing the tears from his wet shirt

A ceremonial apologetic gesture

Its Ok he whispered to her

She pulled back but still gripped him tightly

Their eyes locked onto each other

Peering into her soul

His eyes launched missiles loaded with hope

Drilling into the depths of her despair

She made no attempt to evade the onslaught

It was a direct hit

Missiles exploded on impact

Her hope tanks were fully replenished

She acknowledged receipt

With a slow blink

Mission accomplished

How to conquer the weeds of jealousy in the garden of your mind

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Jealousy is a powerful emotion

Evoking fear anger and rage

It can destroy marriages and break up friendships

All because of a perceived threat

Of losing something close to you

But that perception can be false

You may be seeing things that are not real

Fueled by your imagination

Jealously then ignites the inferno

Counsellors say do not act on your jealous emotions

That is a lot easier said than done

Emotions are meant to be acted on

Whether saving you from danger

Or making you compete to win

Prevention is better than cure

Far better to avoid being jealous at all

By cultivating trust

Trust yourself

Trust your partner

If you ever feel yourself getting a tiny bit jealous

Stomp all over it with a big dose of trust

Your mind will be a beautiful garden

Without any weeds of jealousy