Self meditate is better than self medicate

I remember a time way back in my 30’s

Working long hours to support my family

Young kids and all the demands of home ownership

There was never enough time in the week to relax

Occasionally meeting with a friend for a drink and a chat

He listened to me babbling on about my busy life

Then he said something which shocked me to the core

You have become too boring

Your work has taken over your life completely

You try and devote the remaining time to your family

But you have hardly any down time for yourself

What do you suggest?  I asked

Take a day off and we will go fishing

I remembered fishing as a kid 

I had doubts that it was a good way for adults to pass the time

He insisted so we took a day off to go fishing

We did not catch much but it was a fun day out

Fresh air and nature all well away from the office

I went back to work refreshed the next day

Deciding to try another fishing adventure

Soon it became a weekly ritual

A necessary therapy for my busy lifestyle

Now I had a new rhythm in my life

Work/Family/Fishing

I enjoyed each one more than the old Work/Family

Strangely my performance increased too

I made better decisions at work and had more family fun times

Fishing was initially nothing more than meditation time

Then I became obsessed with being a better fisherman

Learning all about the science and technical skills of fishing

Catching a lot more fish as I applied this knowledge

As my fishing skill improved, my work and family life was more rewarding

It took me a while to figure out what was really going on in my life

Family and work was a constant stream of issues to resolve

By taking time away from them I was able to meditate

My subconscious was figuring out all the solutions while I fished

So next time you feel very stressed and looking for a better work-life balance

Hesitate before accepting the medication your doctor might offer

Put down that self medicating second drink

Don’t rush off to see an expense therapist

Buy a cheap fishing rod and self meditate 

Under the gun

under the gun

to get things done

never enough time

this must be a sign

under the gun

the task has hardly begun

your supervisor is complaining

this lifestyle is not sustaining

under the gun

you need a home run

more tasks keep piling up

your employer is corrupt

under the gun

its all coming undone

you are feeling ever so tired

then you get fired

under the gun

this is no fun

applications and interviews

unemployment blues

under the gun

a new job you won

you are a champion performer

your life has turned the corner

no longer under the gun

Make a list

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when you have a big task ahead do you first make a list

a shopping list for the grocery store

a packing list before a vacation

listing the steps of a major project

a wedding gift list

the list is endless

when I start a new list I am always intensely excited

I visualize  myself steadily advancing the new project

the blank page soon fills up as my list grows

recording each step along the way as a new item on the list

then my emotions change to guilt

why am I writing a list rather than actually doing the work

I reluctantly leave the list to start doing the job

I soon get weary and look for an excuse to escape

discovering a task that I forgot to put on the list

its the perfect reason to be back in list land

I am so comfortable updating my list in cosy list land

I try to convince myself that the job is still progressing

I spend longer periods working and less time on the list

the job progresses but my list feels neglected

I start to ignore the list and do tasks not even listed

my list feels rejected and cheated

in a fit of remorse I later add the missing tasks to the list 

then immediately mark them as completed

keeping my list happy becomes just as important as doing the job

then I hit a big snag on the job and I get very frustrated

an important step has been overlooked

the job snarls at me saying do not blame me

its your fault for not putting it on the list

my least claims innocence saying its my responsibility to update the list

my list and the job refuse to speak to each other 

I finish the job in silence without updating the list

I convince myself I never needed the list anyway

it was just a distraction to keep me from actually working

I tear up the unfinished list in disgust

then I make a list of all the pending jobs that must be done without a list