the world can wait for me tomorrow

sometimes the day just gets away from me

I wanted to write a piece earlier today but was distracted

I was reminded that I needed to do something urgently

then a few phone calls came in

my priority was to deal with those

then I had to run an errand and the whole morning was gone

another phone call in the afternoon requested information

I had to spend many hours gathering that data

and sending a bunch of followup emails

more calls interrupted every email I was composing

so here at am at almost 5pm

sitting down to write at last

wherever did the day go I asked myself

the truth is it went nowhere

of course its easy to blame others for taking over my day

its really a weakness on my part for allowing others steal my time

it was my choice to let those diversions consume my time

I could have said no to most of those demands

or simply rescheduled them for later

my writing time is my metime

tomorrow I will get up early

I will close the office door

the phone will be turned off

tomorrow metime is metime

no ifs and no buts

the world can wait for me tomorrow

hope you can be there to share the experience

Refections on the middle of everything

If Wednesday is the middle of the week

Do you consider the week half over or half to go? 

If you knew when you will die, would you celebrate living half of your life or having half left?

Are you happy in this moment of time or are you waiting for a happier moment to come along?

I am declaring this moment in time to be transient because by the time you finished reading this sentence, the moment has gone forever and been replaced by another moment

Does this mean you can only be happy for the tiny moment we call now and then lose it all at the end of that moment forcing you to refill the arriving empty moment with more happiness?

What an exhausting way to live, much easier to stay happy constantly and let the moments come visit you

Happy ?% completion of your life

Happy 22nd day of this eleventh month of your yearly orbit around the sun

Happy middle of this week

Happy Wednesday

Happy Thanksgiving eve

Happy Now………..

Twenty Minutes

there is something special about twenty minutes

its nowhere near an hour of your time

but a lot longer than a fleeting five minutes

you can devote the most special things to twenty minutes

if you are running really late

tell them you will be there in twenty minutes

its your guaranteed get out of jail card

saying you will be seventeen minutes late sounds too cheesy

when you decide to steal some time for yourself

make sure its a full twenty minutes

ideal for a period of mediation

or a brisk cardio boosting power walk

you can almost lose yourself in twenty minutes

get deep into your favorite book

listen to a few Ted Talks

reply to that overdue long lost friend email

take a twenty minute power nap

wake up feeling refreshed

sleep longer and you will wake up grumpy

you will still be tired if its shorter

have a really useful meeting in twenty minutes

longer meetings are boring for all participants

people can stay focused for this amount of time

they will all thank you at the end of a that meeting

clean out your messy closet in twenty minutes

even the most tedious task can get done

without causing you pain or suffering

you will work harder knowing its not a long job

twenty minutes is the ideal duration for making love

anything shorter is a meaningless quickie

going at it longer steals precious time from your partner

best not to overtly set a timer on this activity

Time was going fast then it slowed down

Moving home is always stressful

So many things to do and the list keeps growing

Time seems to go faster as the moving date approaches

Its hard to look forward to packing all those boxes 

Just the thought of it fills me with dread

I imagine a condemned man feels the same way about his approaching last meal

There is however some comfort in the inevitability of moving

The boxes will all get filled even if it takes all night

Stuff will somehow get moved on the day

Friends will show up unannounced to help

New neighbors will greet you with gifts of food

You will wake up the day after moving behind a wall of boxes

You will feel overwhelmed at the amount of stuff you have collected

You will vow to declutter and get rid of all your surplus things

Then you will stuff them all in drawers and closets to be hidden until your next move

Moving can also involve unplanned moments of pure joy

While tediously sifting through the contents of a drawer to be packed

I stumbled upon the watch that my mother bought for me many years ago

As I held the watch I could hear her soothing voice

I saw that beautiful loving smile on her face when she gifted it to me

The watch started ticking in the palm of my hand

Reminding me that her love is still alive and ticking inside my heart

Time slowed down when I held that watch

Riding the cycle of life

in the last week we had some memorable events

seeing an eagle perched in the tree in our back yard

a super high tide bringing minor flooding

massive temperature swings with frosty mornings

spectacular sunrises over the bay

all of these are memorialized with photographs in my phone

smartphones often remind us of past events

by displaying an image from exactly one year ago

this week it happened four times

repetition in no way diminishes the impact 

the eagle appeared in the same tree exactly one year ago

all the others occurred this same week last year

the thrill of seeing an eagle is still intense

the beauty of a cold morning sunrise is a joy to behold

high tides remind us of the mighty power of the sea

cold snaps make us appreciate our inner warmth

as the earth makes it annual tour around the sun

the changing seasons generate cyclic events 

in some ways the predictability is comforting

as we pass by on our brief journey through time

keep riding the cycle of your life with eyes mind and heart wide open

What is time?

What is time

A number on your wrist

Something that flies by

Wishing you had more of it

You can have it good

You can have it bad

But you can’t get it back

What is time

It just keeps going forward

But we talk of old times

Wanting to reverse it

What is time

Something you have for me

and I have for you

But others have none for me

What is time

The ultimate reason for a machine

Transcend to another era

Explore beyond the now

What is time

A table with starts and stops

The duration of an event

A measure of your life span

What is time

The moment when things happen

The order of events occurring

The recording of a death

What is time

It changes with speed

Astronauts live longer

Do slow people die young

You should never go back expecting things to be exactly the same

A few years ago

I visited the town in England that I left 25 years ago

the place where I raised my children

I remember them playing in a vibrant neighborhood

curiosity led me to drive by the house I used to own 

it was a not how I remembered it

it used to be a thriving community

the once pristine senior citizens residence was boarded up

there were no young children playing in the street

a landscaped common area was neglected and overgrown

many of the homes were showing signs of neglect

there was an air of decay and despair 

curiosity led me to drive by the local pub

I had spent many happy times there

socializing with friends and celebrating events

it had changed a lot

graffiti adorned every boarded up window and the roof was crumbling

I learned that the business failed many years ago

the local factory that employed most of the town had long since closed

unemployment had taken its toll on the community

nothing was like I remembered

and I had no idea it would change so much when I left there

but I was looking back through rose tinted glasses

and my memories were distorted by the pain of a broken relationship

you should never go back expecting things to be exactly the same

things change with time and go through cycles of regrowth

I have since learned that the site of the old factory has been redeveloped for residential use

new housing has attracted young families

children once again play in the streets

the town lives on

You should never go back

A few years ago

I visited the town in England that I left 25 years ago

the place where I raised my children

I remember them playing in a vibrant neighborhood

curiosity led me to drive by the house I used to own 

it was a big mistake

it used to be a thriving community

the once pristine senior citizens residence was boarded up

there were no young children playing in the street

a landscaped common area was neglected and overgrown

many of the homes were showing signs of neglect

there was an air of decay and despair 

curiosity led me to drive by the local pub

I had spent many happy times there

socializing with friends and celebrating events

that was another big mistake

graffiti adorned every boarded up window and the roof was crumbling

I learned that the business failed many years ago

the local factory that employed most of the town had long since closed

unemployment had taken its toll on the community

nothing was like I remembered

and I had no idea it would change so much when I left there

better to keep the memories of times gone by

than to shatter them with images of the present

I felt fortunate to have escaped the decay

but sad to have witnessed the ravages of time during my absence

you should never go back

Carry it well

On this beautiful day

The sun came up

Orange rays of light painted the clouds

Birds lined up to watch

A light breeze gifted playful ripples on the bay

The low sun lit up the ripples with flashes of white light

The fairies were dancing on the water again

Relaxing music filled our home

We prepared our minds and bodies for a day of challenges 

Tapping into the positive energy of the sunrise

Giving thanks for being healthy in both body and mind

Wondering why the same world can be so different for others

Thinking back to my time as a first responder

Remembering the day we rescued a 19 year old girl from a heroin overdose

Her heroin addict roommate had raised the alarm

She had stopped breathing when we arrived

We brought her back to life with drugs and oxygen

She had just been released from rehab

Her world was cheap hotels and selling her body for drugs

She probably overdosed again

One day the sun will rise after she had taken her last breath

Gentle music will be filling our home when the hotel housemaid discovers her dead

The fairies will dance on the bay during her autopsy

Birds will sing while her parents grieve at her funeral

We all share the same light from the sun

I choose to see the beauty it brings

Unfortunately some are unable to see what I see

Either through bad fortune or bad decisions

They see a world full of struggle and despair 

The non-judgmental sun comes up every morning 

He brings you your light

Carry it well

Calendars and Pill Boxes

When I was really young I had no concept of time

Birthdays and Christmas were slow to come around

The days in between seemed endless

Growing up was something for the distant future

Schooldays seemed to be never ending

But weekends were fabulously long 

We had a calendar on the wall of the classroom

With big bold letters for each day of the week

School summer breaks were the annual highlight

Six weeks seemed like an eternity

Plenty of days for endless fun

Suddenly schooldays were over and working life started

I remember company diaries

A page for every day to write notes

The first diary took forever to complete

But in no time at all there were twenty old diaries in my drawer

Diaries were replaced by a Filofax folio

Pages to plan every aspect of my life

Appointments, contacts, todo lists and birthdays 

The time between my kid’s birthdays seemed to get shorter and shorter

Then came the age of smartphones

Recording times and dates for everything I did

I upgraded religiously every three years

But it seemed like I only had each smartphone a few months

They gave me a clock when I finished working

But I never use it, who needs to know the time in retirement

All the days are the same and its hard to remember the date now

Years seem to flash by in an instant 

I take my pills every morning 

Carefully arranged in a box with daily compartments

A big bold letter for each day of the week

I swear the pill box lettering is identical to that calendar on the classroom wall