You don’t know what you’ve got till its gone

That song is stuck in my head right now

As I lay in bed on day three of having Covid symptoms

Yes I am fully vaccinated and boosted but I still got a breakthrough infection, presumably Omicron

So here are some of the things that are gone from my life right now

Fresh air… I am confined to the bedroom in a condo with no balcony access due to external renovation

People… my darling wife is caring for me but she has to stay in the spare room while I am infectious

Exercise…..I don’t have the energy to do anything right now, my bike is looking at me like a sad puppy

Good health….I am not expecting to die from this Covid infection, however, flu like symptoms are no fun to endure for three days (or more?)

Clarity….my brain is foggy and I get tired just thinking

Freedom…I am not a prisoner but I am confined to barracks for a while

I could list many more things that I miss right now but I wanted to reflect on some positives

I have had time alone to check in with myself

I made some commitments to change things about myself that need fixing, things I have been putting off for too long

I plan to reach out to some friends who I have not been in touch with for too long

The next time its safe to actually see friends, they are going to get extra strong hugs

Time for me to rest now, be safe out there all you cheeky monkeys

You don’t know what you’ve got till its gone…….

Remember that line please

Let the future treasure you

try to worry less about the future 

be in awe of the precious gift of the present

the future will be what it will be

the past is your gift of great memories

treasure the now and live in the moment

dwell, enjoy, savor, relish, record, memorialize, reflect but live at all times in the now

let the future treasure you

I wonder no more

I wonder how different it would have been today

if I had made different choices all those years ago

I wonder if I would I be living in the same place today 

I wonder if my situation would be much different

I wonder if the world would be exactly the same

I can remember wondering back then

wondering if I was making the right decisions

wondering if I would have regrets

wondering how my future would be

wondering if I would be happy and secure

wondering if I would be healthy

wondering if I would ever find love again

wondering how the world might be

I am now wondering why I wonder so much

it soaks up too much time and energy

it is surely time to give up all this wondering stuff

leave it to the universe

let fate decide my fate

take my chances and roll with it

wondering is for wondering wanderers

pondering is for pontificators

worrying is for worriers

life is here to be lived

people are here to be loved

health is here to be treasured

security is here to be acknowledged

happiness is here to be enjoyed

doing it is for the doers

no more wondering

just live it

morning star

I rose early before dawn

gazing at the morning star

Venus was shining brightly

low in the eastern sky

a world without a moon

nor oceans or rivers

our barren sister planet

with no protective magnetic field

lashed by the solar winds

a planet too hot to support life

yet she still rises early mornings

to watch over her flowering sister

I became intensely aware

that miracles were essential

to bring us the gift of life on earth

Just wing it

when it looks really bad

try to hold on

just wing it

its your karaoke song

but you forgot the words

just wing it

making her a romantic dinner

you lost the recipe

just wing it

now its all going south

try to make things better

just wing it

at the wedding  breakfast

they ask you to speak

just wing it

you got the job

no idea what they expect

just wing it

if you are really not sure

and you need to move on

just wing it

your phone just died

no more sat nav

just wing it

life can be tough

so many decisions to make

just wing it

space dust

They say we are all made from matter that was originally space dust

Dust particles gradually came together to form billions of stars and planets

Our own plant has a warming sun

With just the right combination of space dust

To enable life to evolve

Your own life started with a single sperm that that out swam 250 million other sperms

Its a miracle that life exists at all

Yet so many people never stop to think

How incredible it is to have a consciousness and an ability to create memories

There are 7 billion billion billion atoms that make up your body

Eventually they will all be recycled into space dust again

Before that happens

Try to enjoy the ride

Keep your own collection of space dust atoms in good health

Help make the lives of the space dust atom collections around you better

Enjoy your next meal of space dust

Sip on that delicious space dust beverage

Use those space dust atoms in your brain cells

To make space dust memories

just what I needed

I woke up at 5am with a terrible dry mouth

fortunately I had a glass of water on the nightstand 

instant relief once my mouth was rehydrated

just what I needed

my mind was wide awake now

I crept downstairs to the kitchen

made myself a cup of hot green tea

just what I needed

it was pitch black outside

everything was quiet

the perfect time for some creative writing

just what I needed

I sat down at my computer

emptied my mind and let my imagination run free

the words flowed freely onto the screen

just what I needed

a few hours later dawn began to break

I stepped outside to watch the sunrise

the birds sang as the sun crept over the horizon

just what I needed

I checked the tire pressures on my bike

clipped in a couple of water bottles

set off for a 30 mile ride

just what I needed

I came home refreshed and invigorated

but somewhat grimy

I stepped into a hot steamy shower

just what I needed

it was still only 10.30am

I planned to achieve a whole lot more during the day

my first task was a short meditation session

just what I needed

At the end of a busy and very productive day

I paused to reflect on the miracle of life

I poured a glass of wine

just what I needed

I wondered if the wine was the cause of my early morning dry mouth

not willing to give up drinking wine in the evenings

I took a glass of water to bed

just what I needed

When a butterfly flaps its wings*

rain drops

bountiful crops

floods prevail

crops fail

sun shines

grapes wine

sun bakes

desert makes

wind blows

oxygen flows

wind roars

damage occurs

politician sneezes

stockmarket freezes

dictator talks

investors balk

terrorists attack

markets crash

Profits galore

Markets soar

wife fertile

husband’s smile

new dawn

baby born

butterfly flits

life exists

butterfly tires

plant transpires

butterfly dies

sad goodbyes

Good health but short memory

good health

most of us take it for granted

until you get sick or injured

then you realize how truly precious it is

you start praying for a speedy recovery

making promises that you will change your lifestyle 

if you get well its a real blessing

suddenly you feel reborn again

fleetingly toying with goals to exercise more and eat a healthier diet

you quickly go back to your old routine

you get busy and forget about your good health

bad lifestyle habits creep back in

until the next time your health deteriorates

break this cycle

before it breaks you

your poor lifestyle is not the problem

its your memory that needs fixing