Mirror confessions

what do you see when you look in a mirror

the same person you saw many years ago

but you looked so different back then

are you afraid to look in a mirror these days

do you just glance quickly at your appearance

avoiding eye contact

how come we all like talking selfies

sharing and saving them

but we try and avoid the mirror

of course you can alter your selfies

make your skin tone look good

but there is no post processing in a mirror

what you see is what you get

no flattery or lies, its all you just as you are

its easier for guys to avoid mirrors

well at least those who do not wear makeup

I only look in the mirror to shave in the morning

my gaze firmly fixed on my stubble

not wanting to bump into

that bleary eyed person called me

occasionally I will dare to look into my eyes

something strange always happens

I question if its really me

or just my minds version of reality

it always feels uncomfortable  

then I step aside and the image is gone

but thankfully I am still there

I do not need a mirror to prove I am still alive

or to remind me how I look

I prefer to reflect on who I am in my mind

I wonder if bearded men suffer from mirror shyness

The battle to control John’s thoughts

John was something of a rebel in his youth, always challenging things

not blindly agreeing to everything he heard and he was constantly searching for answers

he made an effort to think for himself

holding strong views on many things but willing to listen and learn

as he got older he settled down raising a family and working hard at his job

thinking for himself became a tiring task

without realizing it, he allowed others to do his thinking for him

he only listened to one radio station and watched one TV channel

all his books went unread and he rarely listened to music anymore

John allowed others to inject their thoughts into him

broadcasting and social media became the dirty needles for his news addiction

social media closely tracked John’s browsing habits

adjusting his news feed like the pusher who mixes a cocktail of drugs for a junkie

john happily ate all the words prepared by the media dietitians

he would repeat the same digested words during conversations

his circle of friends dwindled to a few just like him

he only went to bars that had TVs tuned to his favorite channel

politicians who hijack people’s thoughts loved John and those like him

they could easily collect votes without having any real policies or credible manifestos

one day,  John collapsed at work and was rushed to the hospital

he had suffered a massive stroke and his recovery was long and slow

throughout rehab he was totally disconnected from all news media

therapy sessions slowly taught him to speak and walk again

his right side was partly paralyzed and he learned to type with his left hand

the therapist gave him writing tasks and he kept a journal of his recovery

it was exhausting to type even a short sentence at first but John persevered 

John’s mind slowly began to wake up again

he started reading books and magazines and progressed to writing short stories 

after a very long rehab period,  John went home but he did not turn on the TV

he stopped using social media but he read extensively and wrote every day 

his first book was an autobiography

John became a successful author

the politicians who hijack people’s thoughts don’t like John anymore

Sometimes its good to be lost

Sometimes its good to be lost

In an unfamiliar place

Without a clear path back

Nobody there to guide you

Before you can find your way back

You have to first find yourself

Find your fears and worries

Find your hopes and dreams

Have some time alone with them

Challenge them to convince you to keep them

Listen carefully to their words

Identify the ones you can really trust

Decide which ones you want to carry back

Leave the others behind

Knowing they will forever be lost

Lighten your load for the return journey

The path back will be easy to find

You will enjoy every step of the way

Come back a much better person

With clearer vision and purpose

Sometimes its good to be lost

A couch potato gets unconditional love

as she was leaving the house

she yelled out one last instruction

remember to feed the dog 

alright he replied in an angry tone

he rolled his eyes as the door closed

peace at last he said to himself

now I can do what I want all day

without her nagging me

the dog looked up at him with big loving eyes

he was too lazy to take him for a walk

pushing him into the back yard

go run around by yourself he said

he flicked on the TV and opened a beer

the couch groaned as he slumped down

snacks spilled onto the floor

he trampled them into the carpet

his phone dinged signaling a text from her

he turned it off in defiance

I can read it later he thought

this is my time now

he fell asleep after the fifth beer

woken by the dog whimpering at the door

he let the poor animal in from the cold

the dog greeted him with unconditional love

I cannot go on like this he thought

I have to try and be a better person

he fed the dog and cleaned the entire house

then fixed everything that had been long broken

he went shopping and bought her flowers

prepared a romantic dinner for her return

after showering he turned on his phone

her text said I AM LEAVING YOU

The adventures of Mr Baker – Part 6 Finale

Mr Baker made three more data downloads for the Russians

He told them he was worried that internal audits would soon catch him

They laughed at him and replied we will let you know when its over

This B movie is running far too long he thought to himself

Mr. Baker told his secretary he was going out for a late lunch

He waited at the corner and a black limousine pulled up

Good afternoon sir said the smartly dressed driver 

Soon the car entered the MI6 underground parking garage

Mr. Baker scanned his fingerprints at security and put his gun in a locker

He took the elevator directly to the top floor and entered an office

With a beaming smile he said you look as beautiful as ever Miss Rose

The aging secretary blushed and replied he is waiting for you

Good morning Commander said Mr. Baker its good to see you again

They shook hands as the commander reached for the single malt

Time for a quick celebration Baker before I go to brief the PM

You did a Brilliant job Baker we just picked up the entire gang 

Their fake British MI6 officer ‘Nigel’ is downstairs in interrogation

Singing like a canary and asking for asylum said the Commander

I almost laughed out loud when Nigel threatened to kill me said Mr Baker

The Russians did a pretty realistic job trying to terrorize me with Nigel’s fake execution

We recovered most of the funds they transferred said the Commander

They were starting to pack up and run when we raided their base

Thankfully we stopped their mission to destroy a large sector of our economy 

Our IT experts put a hidden virus in the last bunch of data you gave them

We got confirmation that its now shutting down multiple KGB systems

It should set their operations back a long time he chuckled while finishing his single malt

One can’t keep the PM waiting Baker so I must dash to number 10 now 

They shook hands and Mr. Baker returned to his office in the limousine

He resumed his sleeper role waiting for his next MI6 assignment

Taking the 8.07 train every morning and reading his paper in the same seat

He attended banking conferences in the far east to raise his profile as a target for fraudsters

A few years later he saw a young Oriental woman sitting in his seat on the train

.……..The end…………or is it?

The adventures of Mr Baker – Part 5

Mr. Baker looked at the compromising photos

As he downloaded the data the Russians demanded

They picked him up the next day with the same goons

Another black hooded kidnapping

He handed over the memory stick

You did good this time Mr Baker they said

Here is another list of accounts to be downloaded

Now tell us about your meeting with MI6

Mr. Baker looked at the Intimidating handguns on the table

They already had enough data to steal huge sums

Cooperating might keep him alive a bit longer

Giving them full details of his meeting with MI6 was his only option

You made a wise decision to work with us Mr. Baker

MI6 will certainly pick you up again soon

Tell them you were blackmailed into giving us the data

But you had made a duplicate copy for them

Here is the sealed envelope for you to give to MI6

They will try and recruit you as a double agent

You must tell us everything MI6 asks you to do

Failure to follow our orders will be punished by death

Mr. Baker looked the Russian straight in the eye

He could see the man had no soul

The Russian pulled back a curtain revealing a two way mirror

Come take a look at this pathetic creature he said

Mr. Baker saw a figure in a chair next to a table

He had been badly beaten but he recognized the face of Nigel

We had to torture him for days to find out what he said to you

Your version matched his exactly which proved you are not lying to us

The Russian barked an order into an intercom

Mr. Baker watched as Nigel’s head was pushed onto the table

A cushion was put over his head just before the gun fired

Smoke rose from the cushion and blood dripped to the floor

…..To be continued……..

The adventures of Mr Baker – Part 4

We will contact you soon said the voice on the phone

Then the line went dead

He put the compromising photos in a drawer

Wondering who all these people were

As he walked home from the station that night

Somebody tapped him on the shoulder

Two goons in long overcoats pushed him into a car

The blindfold hood almost suffocated him

He took a huge breath as he was unmasked

Two menacing looking men sat at a table

Talking with thick Russian accents

Worse than a bad B movie he thought to himself

We know you have access to all UK banking information

You will download these account details 

He protested that he could not break company policy 

They handed him a memory stick

Is this some kind if practical joke he asked

One of the men put a gun to his head

We can make it look like you killed yourself

Your grieving wife will be told that you killed a man

Don’t dare talk to anybody about this

You might be interrogated by British Intelligence

Those clowns try to follow us everywhere

Tell them nothing and all will be fine

They gave him detailed instructions before releasing him

The next day he was walking near his office

A car pulled up alongside and the passenger said

Its about your meeting with the Russians please get in

The smartly dressed man in the car did not blindfold him

My name is Nigel and I work for MI6 he said with a pure British accent

Its you patriotic duty to cooperate with us Mr. Baker

Nigel smiled as he whispered If you don’t I will kill you myself 

……..To be continued………………

The adventures of Mr Baker – Part 3

Mr Baker walked over to the chest freezer

He examined the heavy padlock on the lid

Do you want to look inside said Miss Walters

He looked at her in disbelief and replied hell no

Tell me how all this happened he said firmly

She reached in her bag and handed him a bottle of pills

They were powerful prescription painkillers

He took his own life with these she said

He had been depressed after retiring

Often sleeping downstairs after heavy drinking

One morning I found him dead in the chair

I panicked and put him in the freezer

Why not just report his death he asked

I was afraid of being accused of murder

She began to cry and uttered please help me

He held her in his arms as she sobbed

Let me do some research and figure out a plan he said

She stopped crying and kissed him

He drove home trying to make sense out of all this mess

After hours on the internet he concluded she should just confess

He decided to tell her on Monday over lunch

But she was not on the train that day

He called her cell phone but no answer

She was probably just upset he thought 

Three days later and still no sign of Miss Walters

He sat at his desk wondering if she was alright

While opening his letters and sorting them into piles

A large brown envelope with no markings caught his attention

He pulled out a bunch of printed photographs

A clear image of him entering her house

Close ups of his fingerprints on the pill bottle and padlock

His phone rang and a voice said we can prove you killed him

…………..to be continued……………….

The adventures of Mr Baker- Part 2

They met for lunch at a vegan restaurant

It was not of Mr Bakers choosing

He was more of a meat and potatoes man

He nearly choked on the quinoa and mushroom salad

Are you enjoying the vegan food she asked

Absolutely delicious he replied

She could tell he was lying

He tried to imagine the beetroot was roast beef

She kissed him on the cheek upon leaving

Lingering more than a friendly peck

He was surprised but enjoyed the attention

Her perfume was alluring

They took the same train morning and evening

Engaging constant small talk

Much to the annoyance of all the silent commuters

Who hung on every word

His wife was visiting her sick mother that weekend

He invited Miss Walters to dinner and the theatre

At the steakhouse she ordered salad

Less risk of choking on a ribeye he thought

She held his hand tightly during the play

At the end she whispered take me home

He pulled up outside her house

You must come in for a nightcap she insisted

Her house was immaculate 

She poured drinks and suggested a tour

He admired her expensive artwork

Unfortunately for Mr. Baker the stay in the bedroom was brief 

The house tour finished in the garage 

His eyes lit up as he saw a bright red Ferrari

That belonged to my late husband she said

I keep him in the freezer over there

.…..To be continued………

The adventures of Mr Baker- Part 1

Mr Baker was a creature of habits

He worked in the financial district

In the throbbing heart of London

Commuting by train from Essex

He walked to the station swinging his umbrella

Buying his Times newspaper on the way

Standing in the same spot daily

As the 8.07 train rolled in

The doors opened in front of him

He took the exact same seat 

Alongside the same fellow travelers

Maybe a nod but never any spoken words

One day his routine was shattered

Somebody was sitting in his seat

A well dressed young woman reading a book

He sat opposite her in protest

Too stunned to read the Times newspaper

He just stared at her indignantly

She smiled saying Good Morning

He mumbled a polite reply

Miss Walters was starting her new job in banking

She chatted incessantly and he soon knew all about her

But still wished she would disembark soon

So he could reclaim his seat

They got off at the same station

She was not sure of the way

Always a gentleman he escorted her outside

Hoping that was the last he would see of her

The next day she was in his seat again

Like a carnivore laying in wait for the ambush

Mr Baker was her innocent prey

Firmly gripped in her jaws of conversation

He began to look forward to seeing her 

Then it all took a different turn one day

Lets meet for lunch she said

With a lump in his throat he accepted the invitation

……………………………………To be continued….